i got some text messages at 5am on tuesday from my ex M, saying he got arrested, crashed his car and might lose his job. i didnt hesistate to respond to ask if he was okay or hurt and where he was.
i called him and we talked and i went down after work to see him where he was. i cant get into too much detail but ill give you the basics. it was interesting. nice but also i felt like a friend at the same time... which was fine.
i know he hurt me bad, but i felt like i needed to be there for him. he hit rock bottom and was desperate and i know his friends suck and wouldnt be there for him like i would. i would have done that for anyone, regardless of what the past was like.
now i dont really know what would happen from here.. he texts me and we talk about whats going to happen now with him and stuff, and i am really trying to stay neutral, because i dont want to get involved.. as much as i probably would have, but i dont really want to get involved.
ugh such confusing stuff.. i wish it never happened to him so that he wouldnt have contacted me, but then again i am glad that i didnt have to find out through anyone else and that he did.
i am a confusing person.
ugh.
Well, you did what a real friend would do. You are involved in this anyway now! Just take care that you shouldn't be emotionally involved.
ReplyDeleteI think he will realize that you are not interested when he knows that you were the rational friend for him :)
I agree, you did what a real friend would have done. I would have done the same thing, too. Let him talk if he needs to, and all, but don't let him too close again. I think you won't, but just saying. Don't get involved, but don't ignore him now. And NO, you are not a confusing person!
ReplyDeletethank u for your advice. it is such a strange situation to be in.. wanting to be there for him but wanting him to disappear, but wanting him back in my life but knowing its really a bad idea... too many confusing thoughts.
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