NB Life Update

I feel like I haven't told you anything about my life lately,,, and although it is not too exciting, you should know anyway! lol

Let's re-cap life...

T
So, it has been officially 2 weeks now since I have moved out and seen T. Pretty sad. The missing him is getting worse by the day when I try to figure out who I can go hiking with or who will go to Portsmouth with me, or who I can just chill outside with. And although we didn't do it that much, but I have been trying to think of WHO I would ask and I cant come up with anyone. And that is sort of depressing.. I mean I can always go by myself, but it's just that I know he would enjoy it and we would have fun together.......ugh, makes me sad. I still miss him, it is taking EVERYTHING in me not to call him or text him at ALL. I am surprised with myself that I haven't text him when I was drunk yet....

Keeping busy. That is basically the only thing I have to hold onto right now.


School!
I started class.
Teaching class. I hate it. I'm not gonna lie. The only thing I like about it is that I am taking it with my one friend, but other than that? I don't care, I just want to go so I can say I am in grad school and doing something with my life.
I think I need to drop the class.

You know what is so frustrating though? That there are NO GRAD SCHOOLS FOR ADVERTISING!! I mean, seriously?! A lot of people have said that you don't need to go to grad school for advertising, but I'm like.... well? I am basically stuck in my life and my shitty job and I need OUT like NOW and I don't think I'm just going to get there by doing NOTHING.
I honestly have no clue what I want to do right now.
I want to do something related to the media industry. No clue what though. PR? Journalism? Marketing? Advertising? Online? Basically it needs to be anything online or dealing with social media/marketing/events/event planning.
Any clue what that would be considered? If you have ANY options/opinions for me, PLEASE by all means, comment and let me know! I am SO utterly confused. I need some direction.

photo credits: Jeremy G

The fashion shows were awesome, especially the couture one,,, as you can see from the pictures!

Tonight is the Yankee Game.. can't wait! This is prob the last of the season of my tickets, unless they go to the playoffs, then I think I have to fight my family members for them!

New Apartments!
We put the deposit down on the apartment, the two floor townhouse! It was $175, so if we find something better between now and November, then we can just lose it. But honestly, after looking at all of these crazy places, I don't think we will find any apartment any cheaper that is nicer in any way shape or form. So...... we are trying to move in November 1st. I hope this all works out and that it's not too expensive and everything.
I love my parents and I like living at home, but my life in is New York and I am here 6-7 days a week, it just doesn't make any sense for me to drive back and forth ALL of the time. Plus I sort of feel like I am waiting for T to call me since I am at home and I'm not doing really so I kind of feel like in the back of my mind I am not moving on either because I am just waiting. Everything is packed and ready in the basement in case he calls me and begs me back....do you know what I mean? It's sort of hard to explain in words,, but I guess I didn't want to believe that I was just waiting but not (since I was so busy) for him. So.... this should be interesting. This place is awesome so it should be really nice and IF I were to potentially get a job in the city, it is like 5 minutes from the train station.

is this all i do?! photo credits: eLjeproks

Old Apartment
So we are fighting with my old landlord to get my security deposit back. She says there was damage in the apartment -- lie -- that place was SO CLEAN and well kept, there was no ROOM for damage! She says I never gave her enough time, and I said well sweetheart, "emergencies" usually don't give you very much time. I am not asking for the full deposit back, but granted that our lease ran out in June and she never asked us to resign PLUS the fact that it never said anything about having to give 30 days notice in the lease..... she really doesn't have much to go by.
Then I find out today that she disconnected her CELL ?! Uhm... hello. I have your home AND work phone number as well as your home address.... Let's not play games here! That is a lot of money. Bitch. She better at least give me half back. I scrubbed that apartment down. I didn't have to do that, I could have left it disgusting for her ass to clean up.
ugh!!


And i think that is basically it.... besides job searching and soul searching and life searching.... too much searching! lol

how is your life doing?


PS: just thought it was extremely funny that my mom wrote me an IM calling the ex T. haahahh she was reading my blog i see.

Rainy Day Ramblings

So its pretty crappy out right now and about 3pm. I still have done barely anything productive today. I always feel so useless when I don't get anything accomplished on my day off! But the rain really puts a damper on my motivation. All i accomplished was cleaning my entire apartment and writing another post plus finding some classes I could take next semester. Seems like a lot but I put off dog walking today because of the rain and now I feel bad because they are closed tomorrow. UGH.

I found this picture, I want to give credit to the blog that created it, because it is awesome and they have awesome designs so go check it out! 

http://jen-at-chaos-lounge.blogspot.com/

I also just this great picture from National Geographic from India that expresses rainy days to the T.  Whoever took that picture was a great photographer.  Esp. the women there with the brooms, I don't know exactly what they think that will do, but I will not question, I am sure there is a reason for it!

As for tonight, I will be making a trip to the city to be with my girls. I cannot wait! I absolutely LOVE girls nights. Especially with my ladies, we make shit fun :)  We will be making an appearance at http://www.sheckys.com/newyorkcity/search/leela_lounge_1_3507.asp 

so i hope that the place is cool! 

I would like to continue with my random thoughts today, I am looking at classes for summer and fall semesters for graduate teaching classes. I am going for my masters in early education; a completely different field from I am in right now. Right now I work in advertising sales for a newspaper; which don't get me wrong, I love advertising and I would very much like to work for an ad agency or magazine; just right now is a really bad time and I would like something to fall back on just in case shit hits the fan.

My initial opinion of being a teacher for me was that I was giving in and trying to become a teacher. Sometimes I do feel that way, but I know it is not an easy job and I know I can't just be in it for the very long vacation schedules! But I have always wanted to help people and I am definitely not doing that with my job right now.  I want to give back and in the profession I am in, I am not giving back shit. And I DO NOT want to deal with money anymore. Dealing with money and people and people with money, is just shitty!

So I think of it like this: I am already in, I finished applying to the school for my masters, I have already taken one teacher class and passed, I already took on of the many teaching tests and passed and now I am into my second class. I didn't just waste all of that money for nothing! So I am just going to keep going. I really want to go to another country and teach there too, which that was my initial plan to do BEFORE I got my advertising job. I was going to go to Costa Rica for a month and teach English. But that never happened.  

I am trying to make this not take more than 3 years in grad school, although it is so expensive and it's hard for me to take more than one class a semester since I am paying for this. But I think I might try to do one summer class and two in the fall. I only need 15 classes to graduate. If my plan works like the above, I would have 5 classes done. I wish it wasn't so expensive. I could do it so much faster if it wasn't. 

I never saw myself as a teacher, but I love children and I figure I could maybe teach media arts or something along those lines in high school or middle school. 

I figure this. When I achieve my teaching degree and actually start teaching, I would have more time in the afternoon so I could go to the shelter and help there more. I will still have the weekends off, if I wanted to/needed more money in the summer, I could get a part time job at newspaper or website or somewhere like that and maybe they would hire me for the summer. Or i could focus more on my writing and publish articles or since the summer is long, I could go to another country and teach there for a month. Plus when I get a dog, I will be able to spend much more time with them! Basically what I am saying is that I have more time to have more options. Where as right now, I get two weeks a YEAR to go on vacation and fit everything into that period of time. 

Then I have to link in the long run as well, if I want to have children, which I do, shorter working days and more time off, is better than working 9-5, M-F 300 something days a year. Where as teaching is 7 or 8 - 2 or 3 M-F 180 something days a years not including when the students do testing and things like that. 

So. Is that a good way to look at that? Is this the right decision? I have been up in the air for so long about what I really want to do. Every week I change my mind. So I am hoping that since I am already doing this, I will just continue.  Does anyone know a good Ning social network for teachers to be that I can join?

I am open for opinions! Please feel free to comment and leave your ideas :) 

Enjoy the rain -- I think I should get ready now!