December... And a Dating Update

{looks so much better on the iphone}

It is finally here. It has been a year since my whole life changed and I got more serious about school and saving money and working with kids instead of in sales. It's also almost been a year since the whole relationship I had of mine went down the drain and it has been a constant headache for mostly the whole year after, which is now finally over, again.

As we go into the holiday season, I wish I was in Florida with my niece. But I cannot go there until January due to school and work.

Here is what I have been learning in the past couple of months........

-School is also almost done, which I am sure everyone else is very excited about as well, except we finish December 22nd... like who the hell is really thinking about what is on their final on December 22nd? The only thing I am thinking that day is, who the hell do I need gifts for and where in the hell am I going to get them that doesn't have a line out the door where I might die trying to buy it?

-I have been promoting my restaurant that I work at hardcore, and would appreciate it very much if you could go and "like" it by clicking this link on to Facebook: Olives Restaurant

-I have had crazy shit happen with men and "relationships" in the past couple of months since I have been MIA, and its too much stupid shit to write about or even wanting to talk about it, but I can sum it up in some sentences:

-My ex will always be the person that he is and he will never change no matter how good I am to him.
-Portuguese men are my new favorite people
-21 year olds are so fucking dumb
-If I am asking you for help as a desperate measure and you tell me you can be there in an 1 1/2 hours, pretty sure you will not be graced by my presence again
-If you're 45 and stalking me at my bar and having flowers delivered to me and shoving money at me and still I am not attracted to you, give up!!!!
-Albanians are crazy as fuck but so damn hot
-Nice men will always finish last... just like nice girls.


-iPhone touch screens are very difficult, even worse when driving or drinking.

-I made sweet potatoes for Thanksgiving but I burned them and had to redo the marshmallows... lol

That is pretttttty much the gist of life living in my new apartment.

Bring it on holiday season!

An Update

(celebrating with Bellini's!)

I hope everyone is having a good beginning to their March.

I wanted to update you on my joblessness! I got a part-time job at a preschool which I am REALLY excited about! I will be working 9-1 and I can still get unemployment, which is nice because otherwise I couldn't afford life.

My insurance is going to run out on my birthday, which is the 28th, so that sucks. I am trying to make all the doctors appointments I can before that date.

I mean a part time job isn't much but it's definitely something to get me out of my house and out of my depression. It is also a good help to transition from not working with kids in such a long time.

Onto the update with M..... things have been going. Every time I see him, which isn't often, I get really bitter and upset, because I know when I don't see him, he is with other girls doing whatever. So it makes it very hard for me to see him. Now this week I have barely been talking to him either because whenever he tells me something about where he was, I assume he was with a girl and then the questions come out and I look like a psycho. So I have decided to stop with the questions, which literally leaves me with nothing to talk to him about. And I honestly dont think it is good to even see him anymore, which he I am sure agrees with because he hasn't asked me to hang out either and I refuse to ask him. So.. its pretty much a fucked situation.

Update with match.com and men.... I met a bunch of people through it and I am actually going out on a date tonight, which should be interesting. I still don't know if I am ready for this but we'll see how it goes. I need to move on at some point, and I have to start somewhere. So here I am. I also need to learn how to say no if I don't like someone. I have been doing better at that because I am not hanging out with people I have no interest in as much anymore.

Ugh so complicated...


**Ps... The winner of the Spring Giveaway is..... Nelly @ A Complete Waste of Makeup! Thanks for playing :)

A Couple Things..

A couple things worth mentioning.

+ It is snowing right now in New York. WTF

+ I changed my header picture again, this I believe is the final (for now) one because I really like it. Please feel free to comment and tell me if you love it or hate it.

+ I am going to write a Broken Heart story about T, coming really soon. I wasn't sure if I was ready to or not, but I think I am. Keep on the look out for it. I will also be writing one about my ex-best friend V... should be great...

+ Thanks to everyone who has participated in my Broken Heart Files. Everyone has been really great about sending them over to me and then commenting on each others. Some people who have posted have said that it has been helpful to them in the grieving process and that is so great to know that we can do that for each other, for strangers, who come together on blogs, to support one another. Its amazing and I am so glad to be apart of it everyday! Okay enough mushy stuff!

+ There will be another giveaway tomorrow! Make sure to sign up!

+I am going to California on Wednesday and I am SO excited!!

+Is there anyway to put a timer sort of on your blog posts so that it will post the next day if you're not at the computer? Is that possible or are we not at that stage yet...?

+ It's almost Friday! And it BETTER NOT snow/ice/do anything but be SUNNY on Saturday, TB and I will be gallivanting upstate and it cannot rain!

Have a nice rainy/snowy Thursday..

Quick Version

Hi All

I will post more later, but for right now, my interview went good. But I won't find anything out until August 24th. So lame. So many people are leaving and everyone is quitting. It will be horrible :( I am eager to find out what is going to happen

(random rain drop!)

As for T and I... oh GOD is what I have to say about. Saturday was good, we hung out went to dinner, just hung out. It was nice. Sunday, was another story, because I made plans to go to my parents and he felt (which he told me last night and not at the time) that I always make plans and he's just supposed to be "ok with it". So he ended up leaving and going to his friends house, which pissed me off his I invited him to my parents, and he just left and went to his friends. So i packed up the closet and moved some stuff to my parents.

So yesterday I asked him via text to talk to me later after work. He wanted to know what I wanted to talk about, I said US and he said he had nothing else to say. I told him that I wanted to see if I was the person that he sees himself being with. And he goes "No. not really. I don't see it"

I mean, what do you take from that? What am I supposed to think after that being said? That he wants to be with me? So I say I guess I'm going to move out then. In which he proceeds to say, isnt the place in ur name already? And so forth.
I said fuck it to talking later, because after that, I basically had no more to talk about, so I packed my stuff and went to my parents.
Later that night he text me saying "oh at the first sign of trouble you dissappear" Uhm, really? Like what am I supposed to do? Sit tehre and talk to you after KNOWING you don't want to be with me?! no.
So i call him and he's like you just dont get it.. blah blah blah and how I havent changed and all this shit. And im like, look. If you want to talk to me in person, I will be there tomorrow night (tonight).


We will be talking tonight. I don't know what is left to talk about. I don't want to be with someone who doesn't see themselves with me! End of story. And I think it's just time for us to go our seperate ways....

Ugh. i hate this shit.


***I just want to appologize for talking SO much about T but right now I have to because it is basically the biggest thing going on in my life!! So i am appologizing for going step through step with this! lol ***

Hola From Peru!

Hi!!!

So we made it here.. we are now in Cusco, Peru which is very close to Macchu Picchu.
Lima was OK. Pretty cold, foggy, damp and coldy.... but it was nice to see another South American city --def not a fan though!

We purchased our PLANE tickets from a GROCERY STORE btw... that is amazing. You can pay all your bills and purchase plane tickets at a grocery store LOL--- pay my cable, get some shampoo and some bread.

So we flew to Cusco, I left my bag in the taxi from the airport, FREAKED out, took another taxi back to the airport and FOUND my bag in the taxi!!! SERIOUS luck if you could call it that!!! I almost died I think...all of my makeup and cell phone and sunglasses and all this shit. NO BUENO AMIGOS!!!

The BF got sick from some fish, had to go to the clinic and they gave him altitude medicine and headache stuff.... hmm.. well it worked for the most part!

Been eating ceviche every day --good stuff! They play insanely loud music outside our hostal until all hours of the morning every night.. lol and its all really horrible American music! wtf! haha

My hair dryer (bc this is VERY important!) didnt work since we forgot the converter thing.. so we went on a search to find one that works. Had no such luck,,, so we went and actually bought another hair dryer. For all the ladies out there, that is NOT a "being spoiled" issue right?! No.. Its cold and I dont want to get sick damnit! Needless to say, I got a damn hair dryer.

Friday is Macchu Picchu... that should be cool. Then we fly back to Lima on Monday and attempt to go to the Nazca lines, stay down there for a couple days, come back to Lima, meet up with my friend from college, and go home!

Very interesting trip ive got going on here... i will fill in more details when i get back with many pictures I am sure. I love third world countries but just flying back into JFK is the reason i love New York.

Ciao!