The Recap

Happy birthday to me!!!!

I had an overall great birthday weekend. I hung out with all my friends and family all weekend and got shitty most of the time and loved every minute of it. Between CT and the 420 Lounge in NYC... we partied it up.

Although M did try to ruin my birthday by showing up at my house and saying he needed his stuff back on Sunday after he probably saw all the pictures from the weekend, but it didn't work. After hearing about him and all this shit about him going to be dating the girl I was freaking out about and him buying her shit like had bought me and sleeping at her house..... honestly there is nothing left for me to care about. What difference would it make it I were to fight with him or say absolutely nothing? So i stuck with it saying absolutely nothing and made it pretty clear that I had nothing to say or wanted nothing to do with him.

BUT after all that... these are some of the pictures from the weekend  .... :)

Overall... i had a great great time :) 

And thank you for the birthday wishes!

Ah I am 26.

haha that was me at 9 months old. man i was cute... lol

and now I am 26. Crazy!

Let's make the best of this year. 25 didn't turn out sooo great.

Maybe 26 will be amazingg....!

:) 

Birthday Weekend :)

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I will be 26 on Monday!
I can't believe it already. I feel like it was just last year and I was in Jamaica at this timmmeeee... Ugh! lol
But this weekend will be a lot of fun between the bars in CT and NYC... can't wait! and hopefully my tattoo on monday too...

I hope everyone has a nice weekend!

Say Hello to Goodbye.

Say Hello To Goodbye lyrics found at elyricsworld.com

Best line in this song:

"Say hello to goodbye, cuz it's gone forever. No more try, you and I, not now, not ever. And i'll get by without you. I'm not going back again. I'm not going to lie to you. Cuz that was there and only then."


That post, A"Hypothetical" Situation, is about M and I. I wanted to see what everyone thought before I told you who it was about. But I figured people who figure it out. He has deleted me and my roommate from bbm on blackberry, but not facebook.

He has also tried logging into my facebook page but entered in the wrong email address so i got an email about it. I don't really know what he's trying to pull but it's getting all too funny now. Someone wrote on my wall yesterday about this guys going away party that M hates that I didn't go to..and then M writes RIGHT after that on my wall "hahah" ... laughing about either the fact that someone wrote the guys name on my wall or because it was his going away party.  I deleted the comment.

I really don't know what he is trying to pull or do, but either way? It doesn't matter at all and I don't give a shit anymore. I cared way too much about someone who couldnt have given a fuck about me for wayyyy to long.

Plus I have a crush. I haven't felt happy in a long time. And this is exciting. And it's my birthday this weekend. And I started my new job. Everything is getting better by the day.

If M tries to ruin my birthday in ANY way shape or form, I swear to god.

Just wanted to share this song with everyone for those of you who have someone you are needing to say good bye to. This song has great lyrics. :)

"There are far, far better things ahead then any we leave behind."

Braid Style

I found this awesome hair style on Cup of Jo.  I love it and it seems very simple to do. I am not any good at doing hair styles at all, but this seems fairly easy enough that I could even pull it off.

 Go check out the directions on how to do it on Cup of Jo's blog :)

A "Hypothetical" Situation...?

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I have a mind f*ck for you to think about. And I want to know your opinion and what you think about it.I think I am pretty much dead on with my guesses but maybe I am not seeing the bigger picture..... This is the way way way shortened version.....

A couples relationship is on the rocks. He wasn't sure what he wanted and he wanted some time. She fought him over it but had to give him time. She believed him when he said that he wasn't sure what it was like to be single and just wanted time alone.

Weeks go by and they hang out sometimes and he acts like they are together when they are together, but then she finds pictures of him with a girl he used to sleep with all over the internet. She confronts him and he says they are just friends. Then she information about him and girl #2, whom she knows, hanging out and "cuddling". She confronts him again because she knows girl #2, whom he cuddled with, has a boyfriend.

He tells her that girl #2 and her boyfriend are on the rocks too. And they did cuddle and hang out. They hang out often. Because they are 'friends'. He decides he wants until the end of the month to figure out what he wants. She is still waiting because he is leading her on and mentally abusing her every way he can by being nice and then mean and nice and then mean, with the mixed signals.

She has been meeting new people and trying to get over the misery, since it is becoming clear that he isn't actually trying to figure himself out at all. He flips out on her because she is friending new men and that he clearly hasn't been doing that, that she will be fine without him, and he is releasing her from his life.

Girl #2 and her boyfriend had just officially ended their relationship the week before. The next day after being "released" from his life, she talks to a mutual friend of theirs, and finds out that Girl #2 will be going with him and his friends on vacation in a couple months and that the plans had just been finalized this week.

What I believe happened to the girl is this......... he had been talking to this girl before they broke up. She was having issues with her boyfriend, he decided to have issues to so that they could hang out officially and see what would happen. Things started to work well for them, but he kept the ex around just in case. Once Girl #2 planned her trip with them, and her and her boyfriend were officially done, that's when he had to release her from his life so that he could blame it on her, and then make off like the good guy and also get Girl #2.

Opinions?

Starting my job today!

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i am starting my part time job at the preschool today! i am nervous and excited at the same time to have to wake up and go and do something during the day!

i hope everyone has a nice monday :)
wish me luck!

A Really Irish Weekend

I had a great weekend!!!!!!!!!!!! Such a good time. I haven't said that in SO LONG. We went to New York City for the parade and we took the subway uptown to the east side to The Stumble Inn and everyone in there was in uniform and basically all fire fighters.... I was in heaven!!

We continued drinking and going to different bars with our new friends we met from the LAFD, and then finally left and went back to CT to hang out with some friends. It was so much fun! I am definitely going back to the city next year for more. We didn't actually see the parade but we saw the ridiculous crowd of people in green swarming the streets by Grand Central, so we went uptown to avoid the crowds.

My wing woman! --The Best wing woman ever!!!

My new friends from the Los Angeles Fire Department!!!


Then Friday I spent in CT, it was a friends birthday and we had a great time. I was wearing a very shiny shirt and the bartender gave me my tab and it looked like this:

Haha.. Shiny Jen.

Then Saturday I went to the Blue Man Group with a friend of mine, and it was SOOOOOO awesome. If you haven't seen it, definitely go to NYC and go see it!! I recommend it to everyone.  The guy I went with was pretty cool, cute and nice.

Overall.... great weekend. I couldn't have asked for much more!!

How was everyone's Irish weekend?!!

The Side Tattoo

My birthday is coming up 2 weeks from tomorrow and I think I want to get myself the tattoo I wanted to get from last summer. I didn't get it because I don't know exactly how I want to do it.

I know for a fact that I want it on my right side going from my side a little on the back to the front... very hard to describe what I am talking about in location! lol But I want some vines and the words "Pura Vida"

Can anyone draw?! I need it designed and I such at drawing.. any offers??!
This is the location (not the design) and probably not nearly as big.

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Or something like this... but with some color.

Like this? I dont really know.

Something funky with the words like this...

Anyone have any ideas? Or can anyone draw?! I need some ideas!!!!!

Chelsea Handler

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I literally love her. Her books are amazing. I can't believe I've never read them before or no one told me about them! I am onto the 3rd one now and it is hilarious! Have you read any of her books before?

Best quote (that i actually wrote down) from her book was

"When life hands you lemons, squeeze them into your vodka"

love her! 

She is coming to NYC in May to promote her new book coming out and I am soooo excited and I will definitely be going to see her. 

Baseball Time!

yayyyyy love this time of year!!!!

Disaster in Japan

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How are these people even supposed to start cleaning up this mess? Not only did they have a HUGE earthquake but a tsunami as well. Like WTF did they do to deserve that? That is horrible. The earthquake in Haiti was horrible too and I am sure they are still cleaning up from it and it will never be the same.

I can't even imagine what it would be like in a huge earthquake like that and then not even a few minutes later having a 23 foot tsunami hit. Jesus. Those poor people...

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This picture is crazy because now this is like a normal situation there. I mean obviously its never going to be normal, but just walking down the street and seeing that... so crazy. I feel so bad for them. No one deserves this.

Does anyone have any family there? Have you heard from them yet? It's amazing what twitter and cell phones and google can do these days and how people can find their families in natural disasters like this through social media.


To donate to the Red Cross, go here.

10 Things I Learned this Weekend

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1. Expecting someone to look exactly like their picture on Match will have you be disappointed!
2. Maybe younger then me might be the answer for now!
3. Pulled pork is amazing
4. I am so glad I live in New York and I feel very horribly for the people in Japan.
5. I hate M.   So so much and wish I could be a little bit stronger to walk away.
6. It is SANDAL TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!
7. Dates are sorta over rated.
8. Cleaning is a good way to channel your anger and emotion. Take it out when scrubbing the floor.
9. I do have good friends and even if I lose most of M's friends, life goes on and I will be okay.
10. I still want a milk shake.


What did you learn this weekend?

Summer is so Close....

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Time has changed.... we're getting closer!

Polaroid Heart

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I love this and had to repost it.

Have a happy Friday everyone!

An Update

(celebrating with Bellini's!)

I hope everyone is having a good beginning to their March.

I wanted to update you on my joblessness! I got a part-time job at a preschool which I am REALLY excited about! I will be working 9-1 and I can still get unemployment, which is nice because otherwise I couldn't afford life.

My insurance is going to run out on my birthday, which is the 28th, so that sucks. I am trying to make all the doctors appointments I can before that date.

I mean a part time job isn't much but it's definitely something to get me out of my house and out of my depression. It is also a good help to transition from not working with kids in such a long time.

Onto the update with M..... things have been going. Every time I see him, which isn't often, I get really bitter and upset, because I know when I don't see him, he is with other girls doing whatever. So it makes it very hard for me to see him. Now this week I have barely been talking to him either because whenever he tells me something about where he was, I assume he was with a girl and then the questions come out and I look like a psycho. So I have decided to stop with the questions, which literally leaves me with nothing to talk to him about. And I honestly dont think it is good to even see him anymore, which he I am sure agrees with because he hasn't asked me to hang out either and I refuse to ask him. So.. its pretty much a fucked situation.

Update with match.com and men.... I met a bunch of people through it and I am actually going out on a date tonight, which should be interesting. I still don't know if I am ready for this but we'll see how it goes. I need to move on at some point, and I have to start somewhere. So here I am. I also need to learn how to say no if I don't like someone. I have been doing better at that because I am not hanging out with people I have no interest in as much anymore.

Ugh so complicated...


**Ps... The winner of the Spring Giveaway is..... Nelly @ A Complete Waste of Makeup! Thanks for playing :)

Creme Brulee Recipe

A new found love for this... I had it last night and it was SO good. Has anyone tried to make it? If so, please tell me how it was or if you have a better recipe.

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Ingredients

• 1 quart heavy cream
• 1 vanilla bean, split and scraped
• 1 cup vanilla sugar, divided
• 6 large egg yolks
• 2 quarts hot water

Directions

Preheat the oven to 325 degrees F.

Place the cream, vanilla bean and its pulp into a medium saucepan set over medium-high heat and bring to a boil. Remove from the heat, cover and allow to sit for 15 minutes. Remove the vanilla bean and reserve for another use.

In a medium bowl, whisk together 1/2 cup sugar and the egg yolks until well blended and it just starts to lighten in color. Add the cream a little at a time, stirring continually. Pour the liquid into 6 (7 to 8-ounce) ramekins. Place the ramekins into a large cake pan or roasting pan. Pour enough hot water into the pan to come halfway up the sides of the ramekins. Bake just until the creme brulee is set, but still trembling in the center, approximately 40 to 45 minutes. Remove the ramekins from the roasting pan and refrigerate for at least 2 hours and up to 3 days.

Remove the creme brulee from the refrigerator for at least 30 minutes prior to browning the sugar on top. Divide the remaining 1/2 cup vanilla sugar equally among the 6 dishes and spread evenly on top. Using a torch, melt the sugar and form a crispy top. Allow the creme brulee to sit for at least 5 minutes before serving.

Prep: 15 min

Inactive Prep: 2hr 15min

Cook: 1 hr

Total: 3hr 30min

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Spring Giveaway!!!

Daylight seems to be lasting longer so you know what that means! Spring is right around the corner. It's time to start decorating your house and outside for spring and summer to come. I cannot wait to start spending time outside again and actually not be freezing!

One of the best things about spring time is that you can actually go outside, and for kids, this means that they can actually use their backyard swing sets again and then we can use our outdoor patio furniture!

So I wanted to give my readers a jump start on preparing with a $60 gift certificate to CSN  get your spring shopping started!!!

In order to win...

1. Leave a comment below.

2. Leave another comment if you tweet/blog about this

3. Leave another comment if you're a follower

AND

4. Leave another comment if your birthday is in March!

Winner will be chosen Wednesday March 9th. 

Had to Share...

I got contacted by this guy....
Had to share.

I don't know if I have any comments lol.

Stage 2. Liar Liar

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how much can i really take from this kid?

he is such a fucking liar that i honestly don't know what that comes out of his mouth is true. between this girl, that girl, where he was, who he was with, what he's doing, who this person was, who this person is now, (it would make more sense with names, but its honestly too much bullshit to even be worth to get into)....
it's just like, how could i have been that stupid?

now you tell me you slept at the girls house that ive been freaking out about? you say you're ignoring this other girls texts because i have a problem with her but you end up being tagged in her pictures 2 days later? this other girl is at the same party as you and i only find out because of tagged pictures on facebook?


Really?

Fuck you.

I must look like I'm an asshole huh.... i sure have been acting like one, letting him get away with all this shit and then still allowing him in my life .

Well you know what, I know its hard to let him go and I have been prolonging this but over the past couple of days, I have realized how much bullshit he tells me and how insincere he is and how he isn't going to change and nothing is going to change and EVEN if it did? I don't want to be with someone like that.... if we were to actually get back together, he's just going to STOP talking to these girls?!

YEAH OKAY.

I cared SO much. Tried SO hard. Tried to do everything right, was probably the best girlfriend he'll ever have. And this is what I get? Ha.  There gets to a point where you can't get upset anymore and that crying isn't an option anymore.

Stage 2:  
The stage of not giving a fuck anymore. No more getting upset. Facebook, bbm, emails, updates, friend requests, pictures..... I DON'T FUCKING CARE!!!!!!! I am past the point of caring. He has pushed me away, and I don't know if there is any coming back.


Be single.

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Photography

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"In order to be irreplaceable one must always be different." ~ Coco Chanel