I was wrong.

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i was wrong. people dont change. although i knew i would be wrong, but i wanted to at least give it a try to make sure, but thats what i get.


unfortunately, no matter how good you are to someone or how hard you try or everything you do for them, it makes absolutely no difference because if they don't care about you and only about themselves, it will never work.


i am sorry i wasted my time again.


fuck it. 

Define Cheating.

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The other day they were talking about on the radio, in light of what happened with Anthony Weiner, what people would consider cheating. It got me to thinking about what I consider cheating.

I have dealt with a bunch of different cheating from the guys I have been with. I have also done my fair share of wrong doings as well, so I think in some sense I am a little bias to the situation.

I also understand every persons version of what they consider cheating is absolutely different. My friend Mich, her version is basically anything that has to do with someone else that you are talking to, sending pictures to, hanging out with... and beyond.

Do I believe that Weiner should be asked to step down because he sent his weiner (pun definitely intended)  to 6 women over twitter? No. I think that is totally stupid, it's just a picture. But then again, who knows what he actually did. Either way I don't think it should have anything to do with his job.

To me... cheating is flirting with another person, going on dates with them, kissing them and then everything else after that.

I don't necessarily believe that text messages are cheating nor are picture messages, although i believe picture messages are the step right before they are actually going to cheat. It is hard for me to say about the whole text message thing because M texted with so many different girls I couldnt even tell you how many. And I know they were not all just friends or being nice. So I mean I could say it was cheating but who really knows.

I think any physical-ness with another person is absolute cheating, there is no other way to see that.

My advice on cheating? DON'T DO IT!


What are your thoughts on cheating?

Stage 2. Liar Liar

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how much can i really take from this kid?

he is such a fucking liar that i honestly don't know what that comes out of his mouth is true. between this girl, that girl, where he was, who he was with, what he's doing, who this person was, who this person is now, (it would make more sense with names, but its honestly too much bullshit to even be worth to get into)....
it's just like, how could i have been that stupid?

now you tell me you slept at the girls house that ive been freaking out about? you say you're ignoring this other girls texts because i have a problem with her but you end up being tagged in her pictures 2 days later? this other girl is at the same party as you and i only find out because of tagged pictures on facebook?


Really?

Fuck you.

I must look like I'm an asshole huh.... i sure have been acting like one, letting him get away with all this shit and then still allowing him in my life .

Well you know what, I know its hard to let him go and I have been prolonging this but over the past couple of days, I have realized how much bullshit he tells me and how insincere he is and how he isn't going to change and nothing is going to change and EVEN if it did? I don't want to be with someone like that.... if we were to actually get back together, he's just going to STOP talking to these girls?!

YEAH OKAY.

I cared SO much. Tried SO hard. Tried to do everything right, was probably the best girlfriend he'll ever have. And this is what I get? Ha.  There gets to a point where you can't get upset anymore and that crying isn't an option anymore.

Stage 2:  
The stage of not giving a fuck anymore. No more getting upset. Facebook, bbm, emails, updates, friend requests, pictures..... I DON'T FUCKING CARE!!!!!!! I am past the point of caring. He has pushed me away, and I don't know if there is any coming back.


Be single.

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“You have a special place in the world. All you have to do is find it. Do not give up on yourself, on the truths you have realized. Do not give in to those who would crush your dreams like nutshells. And never turn away from forever love.”

 — Ellen Hopkins. (quote found via Little Reminders of Love) 

i found this and needed to share it with you because it was good to find today. i have been so down, its so hard to get up in the morning.
im so upset that i am this down, and its the holidays and everyone else is happy. it makes me feel like i cant really talk to anyone because i dont want to bring them down too with my problems. and i hate that i dont have much positive things to write about here as well because i dont want to depress any of my readers either!! so im sorry if it is :(

there are 2 huge things in my life that are depressing me.  My job and the fact that its ending and something i saw about M.
I am sad to leave all my friends at work and have to start over again. I dont think there will be a choice and i will just have to leave. So the process of finding another one really sucks.

i found something out about M. i saw something that i probably shouldnt have and it is eating me up inside and i dont know if its true or not, but all evidence points to the fact that it is true..

i need your advice.

if you find something, that you are NOT supposed to be looking in and its bad, what do you do? do you confront them? do you forget you saw it? do you break up with them?

i dont know why this happens to me. why cant someone just like me?

please, advice. i need it bad.


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