Finally - An Apartment

The 2nd floor... finally.

This search has been horrible. And it sucks even more that it is closer to my piece of shit ex, M, who I am no longer talking to, again, but you know what? I will not go out of my way to see him or talk to him or communicate so as long as he returns the favor, it will make no difference that I live closer. It was supposed to be like that, I move closer and we are done again. SO I just can't wait to get this move over with.. I love my apartment I am in now, but I can't stay here forever I guess, so it is what it is.

I will be able to enjoy life besides having craigslist control it now lol.

Searching for Apartments

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is the worst thing in the world!!
And second worst thing, moving.


October is going to be a crappy month.

And a Happy Weekend to you...

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Although the weekend this week is not my favorite because I am working every night at the bar, i hope everyone else gets to enjoy their weekend.

sorry i have been MIA, the summer and life has taken over and i havent had time to write about anything, and i havent been home much.

between my ex now not really ex but more so the present but not dating (whatever the hell that means), work and my other work, and starting to look for apartments for october, lifes been busy. All i want to do is go back to the beach and just lay out haha

looks like come end of october i will be getting a 1 bedroom apartment.. unless i can find someone to live with, but i really am not going to just settle for someone. and i COULD live at home... but my choices are the cat room or the basement...... and its far from my job(s), friends and school. ehhhhhh.

have a good weekend xo

Moving Moving Moving

I am officially moved in!

And I am in so much pain and so sore.... ahhhhh

I hope everyone had a Happy Halloween and a great weekend.

See ya on Monday...

xox

Week In Review

I know, I know... my life is not CNN or anything but whatever, someone out there cares about what happened in my life this week!

-Got back from California (pictures, really really soon!)

-Yankees went to the World Series

-I went to Game 2 (last night) of the World Series and saw the Yankees beat the Phillies AND saw Jay Z & Alicia Keys perform EMPIRE STATE!!!! as well as John Legend sing the national anthem!!!!!! AMAZING!!!

-I am moving tomorrow!!!

-Halloween is tomorrow and we are going to be partying :)

-I got wine & dined with candles bitches! haha

-I am in love with Mark Teixeira from the Yankees and my new goal in life is to meet him!

-I got dominated in Fantasy Football...damnit!

And that is pretty much it for this week.....
How was your week!?

I hope everyone has a GREAT and

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Single and Moved

Well here it is.


My new life.


I moved basically everything yesterday with my parents and two of my friends helped. Thank god, because T didn't want to take any of the furniture, so I had to take everything except the TV and a small dresser. So the truck that we rented wasn't quite big enough but we managed to fit almost everything in the truck and our cars.


What a disaster... Now I have to go back there and clean tonight so I can potentially get my money back from the landlord, who is in hate mode for me now because I didn't give her that much notice in the move. Sorry lady, it was unexpected -- I wasn't totally planning to move!


I dont ever want to say "i know" and i dont ever want to hear "ull be okay" again ..... or "i know, but ull be okay" LOL sara.


Crazy.... T came back yesterday when we were moving my stuff. So awkward. I gave him my letter, hopefully he reads it. That would be nice. I mean, if he wants to call me and talk sometime soon, I am all for it. I do not want him cut out of my life forever... i still love him so much. It's just right now we would never work. There is too much stuff against us that shit just keeps getting fucked up and maybe this is for the best. Who knows... I dont. Im just going day by day and seeing what happens next. No clue.


I haven't lived at home in 7 years and I haven't been single for more than like a month in more than 4 years. Holy crap..........


I really didnt want to move home. I looked at different homes in the area, specifically Ryan Homes, and really ended up liking them a lot. Now I am in need of a roommate.


If only I could pick and move far away instead of moving back home with my parents. I would find a new home start fresh and work at creating the best life possible for me. During some of the worst points of this break up I'd pretend house hunt and imagine a new life. My favorite homes were always from Ryan Homes. They have homes for sale in warm sunny places, how couldn't I be happy starting a new life where it's always sunny? Hopefully buying a home is along the next steps in my life instead of renting. 


I don't even KNOW how to be single! What do I do!!?

257 - Single Malt
Originally uploaded by Single Malt

I have a Job..

So.

I got my job back.

Same exact job.... it is as if nothing changed.... except all the crazy stress and layoffs and people quitting and everyone freaking out. I mean i guess its good and all because I actually have a job as opposed to NOT, but still. It is going to be a lot more work and same pay and same shit because of all the people that left & got fired, now we have to pick up their slack. Fun.

FML!

I have an interview tomorrow in the city. I hate interviews, they are so crappy and stressful! Hopefully something works out.

Last night was awesome. We went out for a huge group "last" happy hour with everyone that was leaving and it was really sad but really fun. I got hammered so that helped. I have lots of pictures that as soon as I put them on my computer I will add some here. But it was nice to go out with everyone and have fun.

And.... moving this weekend.
Yuck :( horrible. i am SO not happy about that or excited and still sad. yuck yuck yuck.


Do i take this apartment? What to do.. what to do.... any opinions? i love ur opinions :)

freedom ?

Freedom
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i saw this picture on flickr and it made me think of my life.. and what is happening right now and I feel like I will be that bird soon. And everything is going to be very different after this week is over.
Should I be excited? Should I be scared? I don't know what I should be.
I am just going through the motions right now. As I walk in, he will walk out. It is so utterly depressing, you have no idea.
My mom came yesterday to help me pack up a lot more stuff, so there is a lot of emptiness in my apartment right now. Yet another depressing fact.

So here I am looking up amazing pictures on Flickr, still in this depressing apartment, counting the days until I find out if I still have my job or not and having the final days with T before we have to be out of our apartment and lives together.

September 1.

That is the last day we officially have to be together. Wow. I cannot believe it. It seems so surreal. Like it isn't actually happening... and that that won't be the last time we talk. And I will still be here in this apartment waiting for T to come home and MAYBE talk to me.. just maybe. And everything will be fine, and go back to normal.
But I know that it wont and it cant and it shouldnt.

so.. one more week.
holy crap.

Time to Pack.

Llangollen Station suitcases
Originally uploaded by jensmith25y
ps. i need to buy myself some awesome looking suitcases like this!

this is what i need to be doing this weekend.
ugh :(