Finally - An Apartment

The 2nd floor... finally.

This search has been horrible. And it sucks even more that it is closer to my piece of shit ex, M, who I am no longer talking to, again, but you know what? I will not go out of my way to see him or talk to him or communicate so as long as he returns the favor, it will make no difference that I live closer. It was supposed to be like that, I move closer and we are done again. SO I just can't wait to get this move over with.. I love my apartment I am in now, but I can't stay here forever I guess, so it is what it is.

I will be able to enjoy life besides having craigslist control it now lol.

Searching for Apartments

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is the worst thing in the world!!
And second worst thing, moving.


October is going to be a crappy month.

3 Drastic Life Changes in 6 Months

I cannot believe it! It was only a short time back that everything in my life was so different. Getting a new job was the end of my complete life changes so far.

In the past 6 months, my life has gone to from being completely miserable with my ex, living with him, at my dead end job, crying every day, having anxiety attacks... to..... moving into a huge apartment with my girl Cherrie, breaking up with my ex and being single, and finally getting a new exciting job that has potential to grow!

I mean... holy shit.

I never thought this would happen. From the beginning of 2009, I NEVER saw this being my life at the end of 2009.

I can't believe this is finally happening... its quite sad that my old life is ending and my new life is finally beginning. With all of this, I think I need to change my 2010 goals because now that I will be getting paid a bit more money, I can actually accomplish some other things that I want to do! AH!

I am happy, sad, nervous and anxious about my new job.

Happy because this is a great new challenge in my life and I can't wait to take it on!

Sad because I have been here for 4 years and I am not used to anything else and ill miss the friends that are left here. It has been good times, despite the horribleness.

Nervous because I am afraid that I will suck and not be what they think I will be. And that I don't remember how to work hard.

Anxious because I want it to happen already. I want to get over the first couple of weeks of learning and being new and have everything settled in! I hate being the new person, it sucks lol

Did you feel this way when you started a new job?

PS.. the winner (chosen by random.org) of the New Year's giveaway is ..... Absent Minded!

Lady email me your info & congrats :) and tell me what you want written on the tears :)

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I am Happy Today Because....

Thanks Moonjava for passing the happniess over to me :)

Here are my 10 things of happiness for today!

I am happy for...

1. My friends and family. Never could I ever make it through life on a daily basis without the love and support from ALL of them. Especially lately, life has been so different and ive been spending lots of time with them all and its just awesome.

2. My apartment and my roommate and dog and cat! Probably one of the best things that happened to me this year. It has been a place for all of my friends to come together and meet each other and hang out and one of my favorite things it having everyone be friends so that has been happening and I can't wait to do it every day! Well and cuz i LOVEEEE my roomie!! She is the SHIT and LADY, dont let ANYONE ever tell you differently!

3. The potential of good things to come. Life has been so up and down and it gets harder to keep a smile on my face, so with the potential of good things to come, it's something to look forward to.

4. Sleeping in (moonjava said it best)

5. Uno! haha my friends and I are currently in a Uno obsession and we play almost every weekend lol.. who could have thought Uno would have been so much fun!

6. My blog - i love my blog and i love everyone elses blog that I read every day too. Its awesome and I look forward to it every single day!

7. Weheartit.com - for having such awesome pictures to go with every post of mine!

8. Hearing new music - its hard to find new music out there and its always nice when you find something different from the norm on the radio or in a cab. Music can change your mood, it can change your life and inspire you.

9. Jersey Shore & The Kardashians! - I am officially obsessed. Since the lack of Grey's Anatomy (which starts on January 21st BTW)

and

10. The Jets Winning! - they haven't been in the playoffs in SO LONG! This is exciting!

{ps. my giveaway! two more days only... click here!}

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California Bound!

hi Wednesday, are we onto Friday yet?

photo credits: Laura Taylor

I am going to California!!!

Buying my ticket on Friday. My friend lives out there in Santa Cruz so I am going to fly out there Oct 21-25th and hang out. I CANNOT WAIT. I have never been to California and I have been DYING to go there for ever. I am extremelyyyyyy excited, you don't even know! BALLER!!!!!!!


Does anyone have any great places in the San Francisco - Santa Cruz area that I should definiltey go to? Coffee shops? Stores? Waterfalls? Anything awesome.. leave me a note!
I hope I will actually get back on the plane.... lol

-I hope you enjoyed my Jay story... that is like my infamous story.. so horrible yet such a crazy learning experience. I will never do THAT! again.
I am getting all these great emails from everyone about their stories and thanks again for sharing. I am happy to share! I love finding photos to try to capture the feelings.. its really hard!

-I am really excited for tomorrow's interactive thursday... lame, i know.. but I have a GREAT question inspired by my Irish friend Conor so hopefully you will like it!

Nothing really else going on...

-I hung out with a old friend of mine that was sort of my hook up buddy a while back (before T) and we went out to dinner and had a good time. He totally caught me off guard and kissed me and I was shocked! I was like "P you cannot DO that!" First of all you suck at it anyway, and secondly I am not ready for those motions in the road yet! I haven't seen you in how long?! Ugh, annoying. Kinda ruined the rest of the night.. I met some of his other friends who were cool but I was definitely not feeling the scene I was in.
Will not be doing that again! I felt bad, he kept asking me again and again... I figure, I hang out with him, I get it over with, the end. I should have known!

- I am in the process of paying off my credit card in full so that by the time November 1st comes and we are really moving into this apartment, I will only have one credit card left to pay! Woo hooooooo :)

-Did I mention the apartment?! If I didn't then my girl C and I will be moving into a 2 floor townhouse back in New York (not city) November 1st. It is a little more than we were hoping to spend, but honestly it's worth it. There was no security deposit, they allow pets (she has a dog, i have a cat) and let me tell you! There are like NO apartments that allow animals anywhere around here for under $2,000 a month. So this was an awesome deal. Heat and hot water included, parking, laundry. I mean, baller, is that only way I can describe it. The place is brand new. I am really excited.

NOT that I mind living at home, I like it.. its cool to be with my parents and my sister, but its just so far from everything.. I only have like a couple of friends that live in Connecticut with me and everything else is in New York.. my work, my other friends, my gym, my shelter, my school... its like driving back and forth every single day is getting really old real fast. I fill up my gas tank like every other day! And it is not cheap! Granted it is not as expensive as an rent, but still... I have to drive EVERY WHERE. I mean, barely anyone will drive up to see me, so its like I am always going to have to see them.

And then when I want to go out with my friends, I always have to drive home because it is such a pain in the ass to stay at someones house during the week.. yeah maybe I shouldn't go out during the week, but hey, I am trying to be as busy as possible so that I don't think of T or try to call him or text or ANYTHING.. therefore I cannot stay home!

so yeah, that is my life up to now. We will see how this weekend goes... I have GREY'S ANATOMY STARTING TOMORROWWWWW!!! HELLO! Cannot wait! And I have some people coming over on Friday and going to the city on Saturday, shelter on Sunday. Busy Busy...

eek... do I ever sleep?

Single and Moved

Well here it is.


My new life.


I moved basically everything yesterday with my parents and two of my friends helped. Thank god, because T didn't want to take any of the furniture, so I had to take everything except the TV and a small dresser. So the truck that we rented wasn't quite big enough but we managed to fit almost everything in the truck and our cars.


What a disaster... Now I have to go back there and clean tonight so I can potentially get my money back from the landlord, who is in hate mode for me now because I didn't give her that much notice in the move. Sorry lady, it was unexpected -- I wasn't totally planning to move!


I dont ever want to say "i know" and i dont ever want to hear "ull be okay" again ..... or "i know, but ull be okay" LOL sara.


Crazy.... T came back yesterday when we were moving my stuff. So awkward. I gave him my letter, hopefully he reads it. That would be nice. I mean, if he wants to call me and talk sometime soon, I am all for it. I do not want him cut out of my life forever... i still love him so much. It's just right now we would never work. There is too much stuff against us that shit just keeps getting fucked up and maybe this is for the best. Who knows... I dont. Im just going day by day and seeing what happens next. No clue.


I haven't lived at home in 7 years and I haven't been single for more than like a month in more than 4 years. Holy crap..........


I really didnt want to move home. I looked at different homes in the area, specifically Ryan Homes, and really ended up liking them a lot. Now I am in need of a roommate.


If only I could pick and move far away instead of moving back home with my parents. I would find a new home start fresh and work at creating the best life possible for me. During some of the worst points of this break up I'd pretend house hunt and imagine a new life. My favorite homes were always from Ryan Homes. They have homes for sale in warm sunny places, how couldn't I be happy starting a new life where it's always sunny? Hopefully buying a home is along the next steps in my life instead of renting. 


I don't even KNOW how to be single! What do I do!!?

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the goodbyes

my apartment..


my awesome coworkers....







sigh :/
as much as i hate this place, it will never change the great people that i have met there and i am thankful for that. they changed my life!

I have a Job..

So.

I got my job back.

Same exact job.... it is as if nothing changed.... except all the crazy stress and layoffs and people quitting and everyone freaking out. I mean i guess its good and all because I actually have a job as opposed to NOT, but still. It is going to be a lot more work and same pay and same shit because of all the people that left & got fired, now we have to pick up their slack. Fun.

FML!

I have an interview tomorrow in the city. I hate interviews, they are so crappy and stressful! Hopefully something works out.

Last night was awesome. We went out for a huge group "last" happy hour with everyone that was leaving and it was really sad but really fun. I got hammered so that helped. I have lots of pictures that as soon as I put them on my computer I will add some here. But it was nice to go out with everyone and have fun.

And.... moving this weekend.
Yuck :( horrible. i am SO not happy about that or excited and still sad. yuck yuck yuck.


Do i take this apartment? What to do.. what to do.... any opinions? i love ur opinions :)