Martin Luther King Jr.

Martin Luther King, Jr.

This day is usually just another day off. Just like every holiday; never stopping to really think about why you are actually off, celebrating the day of someone epic. 

Martin Luther King Jr., a man who stepped up to change and embraced it, fought for it, and dedicated his life to making things happen.

There aren't all that many influential people in the world where you can say they fought for a cause and made it happen. Working in the Bronx has showed me how different life really can be in a different neighborhood with different cultures.

Yes, not every single person in these cultures shows the same motivation and change as others, but you find that everywhere; white, black, Hispanic, Asian, Korean, etc. Sometimes the differences between me and them are so great, that they don't respect me for it, and I can't emphasize with them to the fullest I would like.

But there are people out there who are there doing it anyway, who have been there doing it anyway, and continue to do it everyday, regardless of all of that.

One of the best quotes I've seen by MLK jr. is this:

"Life's most persistent and urgent question is: What are you doing for others?" 

In not many professions can you say you are absolutely doing something for others. I am glad to have worked so hard to be in mine. It has been life changing.

Read Martin Luther King's speech if you have time, now he was someone who knew how to public speak!

And a Happy Weekend to you...

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Although the weekend this week is not my favorite because I am working every night at the bar, i hope everyone else gets to enjoy their weekend.

sorry i have been MIA, the summer and life has taken over and i havent had time to write about anything, and i havent been home much.

between my ex now not really ex but more so the present but not dating (whatever the hell that means), work and my other work, and starting to look for apartments for october, lifes been busy. All i want to do is go back to the beach and just lay out haha

looks like come end of october i will be getting a 1 bedroom apartment.. unless i can find someone to live with, but i really am not going to just settle for someone. and i COULD live at home... but my choices are the cat room or the basement...... and its far from my job(s), friends and school. ehhhhhh.

have a good weekend xo

Life Changes Needed

After this weekends crazy events, it has changed my view on life a little bit. Life really is too short and I feel like I am wasting it away where I am right now.

Apparently there are a lot of choices that I have to make within the next month and I am not sure which way to go. I feel like this happens to a lot of people all the time, so I really want to get your opinions, so I'll try to lay it out as simple as possible because they're annoying and semi-complicated.

Living Situation Choices:
-Stay in my apartment now with my roommate now and sign a year lease (paying close to 1k a month)
-Stay in my apartment now with my roommate now and sign a 6 month lease.
-Find a cheaper apartment with more then just my roommate and sign a year lease.
-MAYBE move back home.

Job Situation Choices:
-Stay at my job as long as possible until they fire and keep getting paid the amount I get paid
-Look for another sales job that I hate and potentially make more or less money

School Situation Choices:
-Do the internship program which is this:  placed in a school during the day and take classes at night and they pay for your masters degree and you do this for a straight year and become a teacher.... then I can't work full time and only at nights or on the weekends which is not enough to stay in my apartment now.
-Work full time during the day wherever I can and take the classes at night and pay for my own degree.


I really don't know what to do...
What I do know...
All I do know is that I don't want to live at home, I don't want to move out of the area I live in, I'd do another apartment but I dont want to go back to CT. I want to be a teacher and as soon as possible, I can't take it anymore.

These teaching programs wouldn't start until January anyway so I have a little bit of time, but our lease renewal is due September 15th and then we'd have to move by October 31st. So the time is coming down.


Any advice?  I am really not sure what to do.

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3 Drastic Life Changes in 6 Months

I cannot believe it! It was only a short time back that everything in my life was so different. Getting a new job was the end of my complete life changes so far.

In the past 6 months, my life has gone to from being completely miserable with my ex, living with him, at my dead end job, crying every day, having anxiety attacks... to..... moving into a huge apartment with my girl Cherrie, breaking up with my ex and being single, and finally getting a new exciting job that has potential to grow!

I mean... holy shit.

I never thought this would happen. From the beginning of 2009, I NEVER saw this being my life at the end of 2009.

I can't believe this is finally happening... its quite sad that my old life is ending and my new life is finally beginning. With all of this, I think I need to change my 2010 goals because now that I will be getting paid a bit more money, I can actually accomplish some other things that I want to do! AH!

I am happy, sad, nervous and anxious about my new job.

Happy because this is a great new challenge in my life and I can't wait to take it on!

Sad because I have been here for 4 years and I am not used to anything else and ill miss the friends that are left here. It has been good times, despite the horribleness.

Nervous because I am afraid that I will suck and not be what they think I will be. And that I don't remember how to work hard.

Anxious because I want it to happen already. I want to get over the first couple of weeks of learning and being new and have everything settled in! I hate being the new person, it sucks lol

Did you feel this way when you started a new job?

PS.. the winner (chosen by random.org) of the New Year's giveaway is ..... Absent Minded!

Lady email me your info & congrats :) and tell me what you want written on the tears :)

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Some Ventation

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Man, my life has been insane over the past month or two.
As you all know, we have been re-applying for our jobs and still have yet to find out if we have them or not. We will most likely find out tomorrow and/or Friday. And then, T and I have broken up and are in the process of moving out. The mental stress and draining this is taking on me is huge. I might need to go to a spa for a week or something and get my brain and heart fixed after this.


My friend and I went to look at an apartment the other day and we really liked it. We applied for it, they approved us and we are thinking of taking it starting October. I told my friend C today that i really am all over the place and i would like to get the apartment but if like 1/2 through September i decide against it, that she cant be mad at me and id pay her back the $75 for the apt. fee.. because i dont know what im doing right now, i cant even decide what to eat for food right now, let alone commit to an apartment for a year. i def dont want to let it go, but i cant think straight and i dont know if thats the best choice and i dont know if im going to be able to figure it out right this second in the mind set that i am in and i dont know if im going to be able to get over this fast and i dont know how i feel about living with someone else right now after tom, bc its depressing and im so upset. So she understands, and says not to worry about it. It sucks, I really hate letting people down and I feel like that is all i have been doing EVERY SINGLE DAY.

T and I sat down and talked finally last night and we talked about a lot of stuff. There is just so much stuff, I dont even want to put it up here because its long. In the end, its over, there is nothing I can do right now to fix it. We are moving out by the 1st. He has made up his mind. He is really angry and upset right now. So to just leave him alone. I told him I couldnt leave him alone until he gave me his exact answer and he did. And now I have to just leave it be.. I can't force it anymore.
Maybe he will talk to me again one day. Maybe. Who knows? I can't keep crying all the time. I need to go to a happier place.

I don't know if that is moving in with C. I have no idea. Who knows?

Right now all i know is that i have to finish moving out, I am losing my boyfriend and best friend, everyone is losing their jobs all around me, I may or may not have a job and if i DO have a job who knows what it will be and where, and this all is happening by Sunday.

Holy fuck.