Not enough time... too much to do

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i am really very sorry i have been MIA in the blogging world. my life has been crazy lately. so many things going on in my life between keeping up with people, work being crazy stressful, coordinating my life with others, all this shit... trying to fit sleeping in that pattern somewhere.. its nice but at the same time it's almost too much stuff to do and too little time.

and as soon as summer comes, i can foresee it getting crazier! between graduations, the jersey shore, possibly jamaica again, birthdays, 4th of july, work, life, softball, beach..... ahhhhhhhhh apparently i just dont have time to fit the gym into my life ever!!! if only i didnt work so far away...and was able to blog during work... or do anything during work besides doing work!!! lol....

is everyone else in the same boat? i feel like a lot of my other blogger friends have become just as busy as me and havent written a lot lately...and it sucks that i havent been able to find time to write on here..and the truth is i cant write some things in my life on here now soooo that makes it harder.

i hope everyone is having a nice week and if you would like to be featured on my blog, i would love to have you :) and if anyone has any topics that they would like to see..send them at me!!!

and although i am frustrated! I am also very happy at the same time...

The Real Me Isn't Quite..

.. ____________________ (fill in the blank).

trying to hold myself back from doing things that i want to do is really obnoxious and hard. but i know i have to do it.

i don't know how to hold back when I am supposed to. I am not good at this single thing. I am not sure how I am supposed to act and how I am not. I try to play it day by day but apparently I can't handle it and I end up taking over a situation and turning it in a direction it shouldn't go in.

And here i am. I know i am being vague but I don't want to/can't get into details. sorry about that.

i am just frustrated.

and this is why i can't become un-frustrated, because even though I am leaving out some details in here, there are so many details i am missing, and can only use my imagination to fill in the blanks, and when i do that, i am for the most part, always always wrong.