.. ____________________ (fill in the blank).
trying to hold myself back from doing things that i want to do is really obnoxious and hard. but i know i have to do it.
i don't know how to hold back when I am supposed to. I am not good at this single thing. I am not sure how I am supposed to act and how I am not. I try to play it day by day but apparently I can't handle it and I end up taking over a situation and turning it in a direction it shouldn't go in.
And here i am. I know i am being vague but I don't want to/can't get into details. sorry about that.
i am just frustrated.
and this is why i can't become un-frustrated, because even though I am leaving out some details in here, there are so many details i am missing, and can only use my imagination to fill in the blanks, and when i do that, i am for the most part, always always wrong.