how much can i really take from this kid?
he is such a fucking liar that i honestly don't know what that comes out of his mouth is true. between this girl, that girl, where he was, who he was with, what he's doing, who this person was, who this person is now, (it would make more sense with names, but its honestly too much bullshit to even be worth to get into)....
it's just like, how could i have been that stupid?
now you tell me you slept at the girls house that ive been freaking out about? you say you're ignoring this other girls texts because i have a problem with her but you end up being tagged in her pictures 2 days later? this other girl is at the same party as you and i only find out because of tagged pictures on facebook?
I must look like I'm an asshole huh.... i sure have been acting like one, letting him get away with all this shit and then still allowing him in my life .
Well you know what, I know its hard to let him go and I have been prolonging this but over the past couple of days, I have realized how much bullshit he tells me and how insincere he is and how he isn't going to change and nothing is going to change and EVEN if it did? I don't want to be with someone like that.... if we were to actually get back together, he's just going to STOP talking to these girls?!
I cared SO much. Tried SO hard. Tried to do everything right, was probably the best girlfriend he'll ever have. And this is what I get? Ha. There gets to a point where you can't get upset anymore and that crying isn't an option anymore.
The stage of not giving a fuck anymore. No more getting upset. Facebook, bbm, emails, updates, friend requests, pictures..... I DON'T FUCKING CARE!!!!!!! I am past the point of caring. He has pushed me away, and I don't know if there is any coming back.