Welcome Back Allergies...

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Although I mean it in not such a nice way!

Of course today is absolutely beautiful out and I am dying of allergies.... go figure!

hope you are having a nice tuesday :) 

Bikini Time..Almost

And counting!!!!


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In need of a Vacation

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I really need to go on a vacation again. I know I just went on it but it was ruined so that honestly didnt really count. Florida is coming up the first weekend of May so that will be cool, but after that.. I want to do something... like 3rd world country again... i miss it.

There are so many different websites to find where to go and how to get there and it basically all comes down to one thing: the price. Honestly, I am looking for the cheapest way to get to wherever I am going and the cheapest place to stay that isn't nasty. So, you'd think that would be easy to find, but then you have the 5 million websites to choose from, and how do you know that that website is cheaper then the next?

I can say that I have planned MANY vacations in my time, and I have never been disappointed with my planning skills. The most important thing when planning the vacation, is finding hotel deals. There are SO many hotel websites out there and places to choose where to stay, that I have found the best deals at Discount Hotels. They literally give you everything on this site. You can find discounts on hotels, flights, cars, cruises...you name it.

Hotels are sometimes way wayyyyyy over priced and if you don't know any better, you might just pay that over priced rate for a crappy little room. The best bet, would be searching hotel discounts because honestly, what is the point of paying $500 for one night when you can pay $100 for the same exact room. NONE! Especially now a days, save that extra money and spend it on something better!

I love to travel, and it sucks that I can't as much now because I don't have that much money, but when i do get to travel, finding the lowest rates to get there, is the best way to go. I just found this website called usa.gov, that when you go there, it has a list of all 50 states and it links to the state website, which is really cool especially since it gives you a bunch of ideas to do if you go to that state.

Go check these out and get planning....summers almost here!!


Where is your next vacation to??

Deletion from Facebook Stage

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I hadn't deleted M from Facebook.

Until today.

Why?

Even though we havent talked in about a month, and I haven't seen or text him in just about the same time...

Why?

I don't know, I guess I wanted to see what he was up to. And I wanted him to see what I had been up to as well.

Not that it is all that much, and I really don't go all out and post every single detail about my life and what I'm doing all over Facebook like he does, but there were little jabs here and there that happened that I had liked him to have seen. And which he most definitely did... and if he were to say he didnt look at my facebook page, that would be an absolute lie.

I deleted him today for this reason....  he has deleted me from bbm, he has changed preferences so much over time so that I can no longer write on his wall (not that i would EVER do that), and I cannot see what other people post on his wall as well. So i figured, if he had to go to that much trouble so I couldn't see shit on his page or whatever, I should just delete him.

He has slowly but surely deleted my from his life, I made the final move. He most likely will never run into me, because I dont hangout where he does anymore. And he will never go where I go NOT because of me, but because purely of inconvenience; its too far. Which is totally fine with me.

It is sad how long and how much time and effort I have put into worrying about this kid and what hes doing and what he was doing and how I could get him to stay with me and love me and be with me... when in reality, it made absolutely NO difference what I did, or said, or didnt do... Because in the end, it was ALL about him, and not about me at all.

It is also sad how I let this happen to me. How I let him treat me like such absolute shit and pretend like everything was totally fine. The things I did for this kid to get everything that I got in return, is not even justified. I should have more respect for myself then that. That is an internal battle that I need to work on. And I have known this, but chose to ignore it...and look where that got me.

I feel strange about this. Good and bad.

Good because it will be a slap in the face to him, since he probably didnt think I would, just like he probably thought I would text him to cause a fight after he changed his settings on facebook to block me. Bad because it still sucks that this is the way it all had to end. That he couldnt be mature about anything at all and made it have to be like this. After a 4 year relationship with my OTHER ex,,,,, we parted ways and that was the end of it! This breakup has lasted so long and has just been drawn out.

I am just over it.


Give me your thoughts on the Facebook Deletion........ is that really the last stage? It feels like it...

Summer Bag

love this bag!!!
Found at Banana Republic

via the beauty file

have you found any fancy summer bags?

have a great weekend! 

Teaching Abroad

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I need some advice. 

This has been a dream of mine for soooooo long. 

I have been trying to teach abroad for YEARS it seems about now, and I am finally setting into the idea that this can actually happen next year. I am meeting with my academic advisors tomorrow to see if my student teaching would work going abroad, and if so, there will be nothing stopping me from doing so.

Now, what I need advice on is, WHICH program works? And which program would you suggest? There are a million programs out there, but some are shady, some are bad, some pay real bad, and then there are some good ones, but they are hard to find and its hard to figure out which ones are which. 

I figure, if I can pull this off, which nothing usually ever works out in my favor... but lets pretend it did.... I could do my student teaching in Costa Rica for the semester, get paid to work there, get a certificate in Teaching English as a Second Language, and then come back and have the certificate and be ready to graduate by June 2012, and maybe use the ESL certificate to get a job in September........

This is all up in the air,,, but if you can suggest ANY sort of program that you have heard of or have used before, it would be MUCH appreciated.

Thanks!

A Quote

"i saw them standing there pretending to be just friends, when all the time in the world could not pry them apart." 

check out more quotes at my teacups in peony

Stomach Bugs & 80 Degrees

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April is seriously full of everything I see! Between stomach bugs and it being 80 degrees and beaaaautttifulllll today, I have mixed feelings about my weekend! lol.

Apparently at my job 2 weeks ago there was a stomach bug going around but no one in my room got it so we thought we were in the clear. WRONG. Saturday night I went out to dinner with P, and it was a really nice place and they had good food. We were going to go out for some drinks but I felt soooo full afterwards I decided that we should just go back to his house.

On the way back, I knew something was sooooo wrong and I said to him that this sounded crazy but I was most definitely going to puke, like RIGHT now.... which I did... multiple times out the window while he was driving... until he was able to pull into a parking lot. Poor kid! After that I was sooooooooooo sick ALL night and into the next morning. It was the worst EVER. I thought I was dying.

Finally, Sunday night around 10pm I began to feel somewhat better. UGH........ how horrible!! I hope no one else ever gets that bug, it was the absolute worst!

Although I would say that P took care of me.... so that was really awesome, and so nice... poor kid though lol.

Sucks because earlier that day I was playing frisbee in the park!

But overall it was succchh nice weather in New York.

How was everyones weekend?  Anyone get sick like me?!

This is how I feel today...

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im just kinda happy :) 

so nice to say.... !! 

i'll tell you why when i figure it out ... haha 

how are you feeling today?!

April Showers

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I can't believe its April already! Good thing, because I cant deal with this cold weather anymore. It's that time of the year where it is supposed to be warm but its not quite there yet. So annoying!

A couple months ago, I felt like I had nothing to look forward to, and honestly at that point, I really didnt.  Moving forward to right now, I have so so many things to look forward to. My goal is to make this summer absolutely amazing and DO things, besides drink!

I bought my ticket to go to Florida to see my best friend, hopefully the baby will be born before or during my visit! lol..... that luck i dont have BUT i can wish.

Yankee season has just started, I got my schedule for the games, cannot WAIT!!! Spring/Summer time is always the best time of the year. Especially because you can just go outside and not freeze to death!

Anyone have any plans they are looking forward to this summer??

let it be.

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some things are hard to let go.
some things you have to let go.
some people just don't know how to let it go.
some memories are hard to move past.
some events in life are hard to leave behind.
some times things you dont expect to change, do for the worst.

over all, shit happens and things change and at some point, when your heart agrees with your brain, you have to let it go.

some times you let go of something in order to make room for something better.

“Change is never easy, you fight to hold on, and you fight to let go.” 

what does "let it be" mean to you?

25 to Life, Eminem

Lyrics | Eminem lyrics - 25 to Life lyrics


This song reminds me of M and if I could tell him something through a song, it would go something like this (except the being married part)


Do you have a song that you would play for an ex?