Thursday, July 29, 2010

College - the decisions i didn't make


Have you ever looked back on your college years and think, what the hell was I thinking when I decided to major in that?

I have been feeling that feeling since 2006 when I walked out of that gym where our graduation was. Why did I choose a Communications degree -- the broadest degree at my college? Why didn't anyone tell me I should pick something else; something more specific or defined.

I wish I could go back in time and have gotten another degree. Dont get me wrong...there is nothing WRONG with a communications degree.. its just that there is nothing that I specialize in and there is nothing that makes me stand out more then any other candidate looking to find a job.

I have no special talents, I can't take any tests to increase my specialties...there isn't much to do...hence why I got into sales. Not that sales is bad,  but it's just not for me.

And now it's almost too late. I have an apartment, bills, and many other things to pay. I don't have time to go back to school full time. I don't have the money to go back to school full time. And I can't, because then I would have to leave my job..and then I would have no money. It's a vicious cycle.

Granted I don't completely regret anything about my college years, I just wish that I knew a little bit more of what I wanted to do, so that those 4 years of my life that I spent there, it could have helped me in the end when I got out to make more money and not have to go back to school to get anywhere.

I am almost thinking that if I didn't graduate a year early and actually went to college a year after and took a year off..I might know more of what I wanted to do.  But on the flip side... i would have never met any of the people I have met along the way of my life and journeys so far so it all equals out.

Does anyone ever feel like that?
I have a feeling I am not alone.



Miss Vintage Vixen said...

Obviously, you're not alone... I'm sorry about how you feel... :( Sometimes, though, you find that whatever it is you do will sometimes pay of in the end. Somehow :D

I'm curious, now! If you were to go back to college, what would you major in?

Guilty of Gossip said...

Sometimes I feel like i picked the wrong college all together and that I don't even remember making a big deal out of where I ended up for the next four years. I wish I could talk to my 'senior-in-high-school-self' and be like- THIS IS A HUGE DECISION! but at that time i was like, "eh, it doesnt matter where I end up!"

Novelista Barista said...

honestly... i might have went for teaching...cuz i would have been a teacher by now and in 2006 that would have been okay bc there were a lot of teachers needed not so much.

Marissa said...

I feel like that ALL THE TIME. ALL the time. Wow - it's so good to know I'm not alone. I have a hunch a lot of us feel that way.

Annie Cristina said...

I actually changed my mind three times in college -- first I majored in Psychology, then Education, and finally settled on English. But sometimes I wonder what would have become of me had I stuck with my first choice, Psychology.

Novelista Barista said...

yah i did too..and thats why it took me to communications...the broadest degree bc i took so many random classes.

Michelle said...

Girl, I graduated from college TEN friggin' years ago. What I'm doing now is certainly NOT what I pictured myself doing ten years after getting my B.A. I started as a Psych major and wound up graduating with a degree in Geography. I used the degree for nearly five years and then my life took a completely different turn: I decided to stay home after the birth of my 2nd child.

I haven't been able to find myself since then. I So, I'm headed BACK to school this finally finish the graduate degree (in Early Childhood Education) that I started back in 2006.

I totally look back and wonder why I chose what I did and why I made the decisions that I did. But, I don't have one single regret.

Novelista Barista said...

yeah i hear you... i dont regret either.. i wish someone had just guided me in the right direction so i wouldnt have wasted so much time & money!!! lol

The Friendly Skies said...

You are not alone! I have a degree in photography and while I love taking photos (I do so on the side now, on my own terms) I was working in portrait studios hating life.

I became a Flight Attendant for my "find myself" job and to travel. I still question what I am going to do once I want to settle down. I think it's normal for people who like exploring. I have some friends who are completely happy with their life back in Ohio but really have no desire to go anywhere else.

Novelista Barista said...

ahh flight attendant... i thought about that for a long time! but never went thru with it bc i hate flying.. but love traveling.

La chica en el marco said...

Yeah, you're totally not alone...
I have a degree in Urban Studies. I chose it because I thought I would do Architecture as a Masters... but now I'm doubting, and I always think I should have studied art even if a lot of people said I could have that as hobby... I should have been more confident in it as a career.
Now I love photography (always have, just didn't realize how much), and somehow I want to incorporate it in my career plans...we'll see what happens :)

You're not alone, good luck chica :)

lyndsey said...

I got my BA in Communication as well...I regret it SO much. I feel like I'm stuck with admin jobs until I can go back for my Masters. Urgh. I feel your pain.


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