boston, cell phones and candy.

hope everyone had a nice halloween! this was us on Saturday night, although it looks like im not dressed up because you can't see the bottom of my outfit : (  but i was a school girl.... with a plaid skirt. I think next year I will have to dress up more.

so boston.
it was great. unfortunately only one bad thing happened was someone stole my cell phone out of my bag when we were at the bar. :(  So... I have no pictures to post from Boston yet, I will later today.

thank god i have insurance and all my stuff saved on my computer so I didn't lose every single thing from my phone.

but we had a great time. We went to the Sam Adam's Brewery, took a crazy trolley ride to this Irish Pub, went bar hopping that night, and then had a funny experience with McDonald's and losing our car.

The next day we went to Salem to meet my friends at the Salem Beer Works and Salem was CRAZY packed. They wouldnt even let us in the restaurant because it was filled to capacity. But we finally got in and had some Blueberry Beer and then went home.

Overall..... it was a good trip, minus my cell phone.

How was your halloween weekend?


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Cellphones = The Devil

I have a love/hate relationship with cell phones.
I love my cell phone.
I have M's cell phone.
He is on it ALL OF THE TIME.

We dont get that much time together and his cell phone is always going off. I have made it very clear that I dislike it a lot and even had to ban him from his phone when we go out to dinner.

When we are out hanging out with his friends and every single one of them is on their phones, its like... why are we even hanging out? We might as well just be at home texting each other.

I don't get it sometimes. I understand the need to be involved with everyone and feeling important, but I don't get the point of why the need to be on the phone all of the time.

I don't check his phone and I have no idea who he is texting all of the time. I trust him but its like... when we're here with all of his friends and he is STILL on his phone... like who the hell are you texting now?

Does anyone else have this problem? How do you handle it? Because my solution will be smashing it on the floor soon and that's not the logical answer!!!

Phone Update

I figured I needed to update everyone on what I decided to do with my and T's phone situation (plus I really need to talk about it as well, since this is the last tie I have to him)

So i spoke to everyone, heard all of your thoughts... and thank you btw,, it really really helped because I didn't think it was that big of a problem before I started talking to his friend R and then I wrote that post. Apparently it was a def big no no! So i finally spoke to my mom and she convinced me that since he hasn't tried to get back with me, contact me, see if i am alive, anything like that.. its been three months and nothing. My mom, who its the shit btw :) , she told me I should text T and tell him myself that I would be canceling the phone instead of having one of his friends tell him.

I, naturally, freak out and get nervous and don't want to do that. She goes, "that is the problem you had when you were dating; go ahead be strong" Ah, touche Mother, touche..... I never voiced my opinion and I never spoke back to him and I was always afraid to say anything to him for some reason... who knows.

I ended up calling Verizon and talking to them about what to do. And seriously? THANK GOD FOR VERIZON!!! The guy is going to call T by the 20th and have him fill out a form and switch the phone into his name. So i don't even have to do ANYTHING! Verzion is going to do my dirty work FOR ME! Amazing. But if T doesn't answer the phone or cooperate, then he is going to call me back by the 20th and I will pay the cancellation fee.

So I manned up and text T this after that convo:
"Hi. I wanted to let you know Verizons gonna call you to switch the phone into your name by Nov. 20th. Hope everything is good. Jen"


AH I was freaking out. Obviously he did NOT respond to me. Nor did I think he would, but that is the first time I have text him since we moved out.

I ended up talking to R last night for an hour about the whole T situation and he was telling me his opinion and he thinks that T and I just had a serious communication misunderstanding, which really sucks because I can definitely see that being true, but that's only because T is a stubborn bitch. But he basically told me that I need to move on and that maybe one day if T and I ever run into each other at a party we'll talk but other than that he doesn't think itll happen anytime soon. And let me tell you, that will NEVER happen. I will avoid AT ALL COSTS to go to a party where T will be. Screw that... I dont need that.

SO
In the end... I manned up and by Nov 20th, there will be no T left in my life whatsoever.. except for some of our furniture that I have in my new apartment... but that's it.

Ugh.

I don't know how i feel about this. I have no emotion left for this. :( Everything about T makes me numb.

today sucks.

today sucks.
its only 1030 and i wish it was over.

i started thinking about T this morning for no apparent reason and i stupidly asked his friend about him to see if he ever asks about me and then we started talking more about the situation.

i told his friend that i still pay for his phone (sigh) because i havent had the guts to cancel it yet. So he told me I had to cancel it right away. I call verizon and they tell me that I have to pay $90 to cancel it or i can transfer it to him. I started to get really upset because I thought it would be much easier than that... which was dumb...obvi it wouldnt be.

I mean $90 isnt a lot.. its just that I am sort of stressing this whole paying for my expensive apartment thing and the fact that my job is up my ass and is trying to fire me some how. Its just too much. I get depressed as I drive to this place in the morning,, so it really ruins any chance of being happy the rest of the day.

Ugh.... I am torn.. I dont know what to do. I want to cancel it but i dont...because that is like my final connection to him...and im so mad. Im so angry that it worked out this way. Im just angry at the fact that we didnt work out. And it was so close, but yet so far from being good and I hate being alone.. its so frustrating that i dont even know how to be alone because i havent nearly ever been.

What do I do people... any suggestions?

I am sure it will be to cancel the phone and eat the $90... ugh.... i am never moving in with someone again unless we're engaged. No freakin joke... never again... this has taken a huge toll on me.. more than i will ever let anyone see. But it has, and its killing me. I have to change the last thing in my life that is making me depressed so I can completely start over.