IT WAS ACTUALLY SUNNY OUT TODAY!!!! (although only in the afternoon -- it was still really nice!)
After watching Mama Mia on the bus in Peru I have not stopped listening to Abba.... haha it is so good! I want to break out dancing every time i hear these songs
and this picture is awesome.... i want to do that and take a picture! lol
Thank god the sun finally came out today. It hasn't been in New York in more than a week. So now i am tan for me! Awesome since i'm Irish and don't get tan. It usually takes lots of tanning over and over in small doses for me to acquire color. I went to the park and sat in the sun on the hudson.. it was really nice.
I haven't been there in a real long time. I used to go there and just hang out and think. So this was nice. My friend met me there and we talked for a really long time, and it helped with the amounts of things I am thinking about right now and the shit load of stress that's on my shoulders right now. I needed more of an inside opinion and I got it.
I am so stressed out, I really want to cry. Just thinking about what is going on makes me want to cry because my life didn't work out the way I thought a while back that it was going to. And now I am here, and its so far from the place where it should be. But that is my life. And now I have to deal with it. Its better than later. Why cant things be easy again? Where did it go wrong? WHERE DID IT GO WRONG.
I just want to know that..
and here i am.
i hope the next step in my life is on the sunny side... it has potential i think..
and now i have to play doctor, and band-aid up my life --i hope i don't fuck up.