Sunday, June 14, 2009


IT WAS ACTUALLY SUNNY OUT TODAY!!!!  (although only in the afternoon -- it was still really nice!)

After watching Mama Mia on the bus in Peru I have not stopped listening to Abba.... haha it is so good! I want to break out dancing every time i hear these songs

guitar pb Pictures, Images and Photos

and this picture is awesome.... i want to do that and take a picture! lol
GUITAR WOMAN Pictures, Images and Photos
Thank god the sun finally came out today. It hasn't been in New York in more than a week.  So now i am tan for me! Awesome since i'm Irish and don't get tan. It usually takes lots of tanning over and over in small doses for me to acquire color.  I went to the park and sat in the sun on the hudson.. it was really nice. 
I haven't been there in a real long time. I used to go there and just hang out and think. So this was nice. My friend met me there and we talked for a really long time, and it helped with the amounts of things I am thinking about right now and the shit load of stress that's on my shoulders right now. I needed more of an inside opinion and I got it. 

I am so stressed out, I really want to cry. Just thinking about what is going on makes me want to cry because my life didn't work out the way I thought a while back that it was going to. And now I am here, and its so far from the place where it should be.  But that is my life. And now I have to deal with it. Its better than later. Why cant things be easy again? Where did it go wrong? WHERE DID IT GO WRONG.

I just want to know that..
and here i am.

i hope the next step in my life is on the sunny side... it has potential i think..

and now i have to play doctor, and band-aid up my life  --i hope i don't fuck up.



pinkapplecore said...

I wish I could give you a HUGE band-aid :(


the girl in stiletto said...

*hugs* as cliche as this may sound, i always believe that things will get better, eventually. i wish things will get better for you :)

Shannon said...

You're in my thoughts! Here's to a good week!

The Novelista Barista said...

thanks so much everyone :) i really appreciate it!!

Olivia Rae said...

awww maybe it didn't work out the way you wanted it to because it's going to work out much better than you ever planned! go see up!

Anonymous said...

Just stumbled across your blog and love it. Hang in there sister! Just keep your head up and continue to work hard!

The Novelista Barista said...

thanksss i hope soo!

GARF said...

Hmm..all the best...hope the doc gets it all fixed.

Aritza, Goddess of .. said...

I totally understand. I often get the feeling that I've gone totally off-track and that all the plans/dreams I had .. just won't be coming true. But when you look back at those moments when you "panic".. everything seems to work out for the best.
Hang in there, it'll pass.

Children of the Nineties said...

Hoping that things work out for you. I know it sounds cheesy, but things really will turn around. You're young and it's too early to have regrets--things have plenty of time to turn out the way you dreamed they would.

green ink said...

Wish I'd seen this at the time, hope you're ok. I think most people feel like this from time to time. Sounds like a brush-off I know, but things have a habit of working themselves out. I too am so far from where I thought I'd be right now, it's not funny. But I'm learning to be ok with it, and learning to prioritise what is really important to me to achieve in my life, and what I need to let go of and accept that the time has passed for. It's not easy, but life is far too short to have regrets.

If you feel like chatting please drop me a line :D x


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