Wednesday, October 6, 2010
the ups and downs
M and I have been having some problems. It's been so early in the relationship but they're still there. I believe in him. I want to be with him. I very much like him.
Those are the important things.
Will I get hurt? Maybe
Will he do something wrong? Maybe
I am willing to look past things and keep going. I have with other people who deserved MUCH less of a chance. Some people think I'm being stupid and naive and letting him do whatever he wants but honestly...if anything goes really wrong again where he is questioning if he wants to be with me or not, I am done.
His debates between not sure if he's ready for us or a relationship etc. etc. and then deciding he wants to be with me, have been really rough and hurtful -- but at least he was honest about it and said something instead of just acting weird and running away.
So I guess we are trying to work on things now. I can't do the half in / half out relationship. It's either all or nothing, but I will be proceeding with caution.