October for some strange reason is one of my favorite months of the year. It's not crazy cold and it's not crazy hot. It's one of the perfect months. If I ever get married, it would be in October.
I love the fall. I love decorating with fall items, apple picking, sleeping with the windows open and lots of covers... its a nice time of year.
These last couple of days of September have been really hard for me. A lot of problems with M, that I don't even want to start to get into right now that we are sort of working on. So that has really taken a huge tole on me.
But on top of that, I really don't know what is going to happen with my job, and as much as I hate my actual job, i LOVE the people that work there. I have so many friends there, I dont know what it will be like when I leave. My girls there are the only friends of mine that are around anymore and what am I going to do when I leave there? Who am I going to hang out with?
I know that I can obviously just call them and then go out with them or hang out, but literally all of my other friends have disappeared and it's hard to even get them to go simple places with me without planning it far in advance.
I guess its whatever, and thats what happens when people move and get boyfriends and have jobs and what not.
I really just need a damn vacation from my life. Too much drama and stress. And there is only two more months left of 2010.
So... since we signed another year lease, we are NOT moving, and this will be the first time in EIGHT years that I haven't moved, I can focus on other things like finding a new job if I happen to get fired and picking myself off the ground if my relationship happens to end.
And here's to the fall......