Wednesday, October 28, 2009

rainy day blues.

what a crummy rainy day... so depressing.

even more depressing that i have to go and start my midterm that is due TONIGHT after work. ugh.
all i want to do is blog and i have no time because i am supposed to be working because my boss told us all we sucked yesterday and we're going to get fired.

i keep thinking about T and it is really depressing me. I don't know if its the rain or if its the fact that i'm moving on Saturday or what the hell it is.
I really miss him and it is pissing me off because I am actually happy right now regardless of how much i miss him. i am beginning to wonder if i am missing the IDEA of him and what we used to have in the beginning since i am probably blocking out all the bad stuff that has happened? i dont know.
all i know is it needs to stop raining.

i have a lot of feelings about moving that i am going to write about. there are a lot of things i need to write about as well... california, t and i broken heart file, my ex friend story..ahh

i have no time!!!!!!!!!!!!

what do you think about when it rains?
am I the only one that gets depressed and thinks about the good old times... when they may or may not have really been good at all?



Melanie's Randomness said...

I'm in southern New York so all I've been doing today is watching the rain. It sucks. It's so drab out, that I don't want to do anything. Maybe it is the idea of T that's bringing ya down? I think the idea of my C is what is driving me nuts lately. As time goes by you start to only remember the good things which I'm convinced makes us sadder, with rightful reasons, but I'm glad to hear your happy right now with some parts of your life. Good luck with the move, the weahter is supposed to clear up soon. =)

plentymorefishoutofwater said...

Ah, the 'idea' of him...I often fall into this one. With 'her' though, not 'him'.
Nice post...chin up!

~**Dawn**~ said...

I have to admit that sometimes I find the rain very peaceful & cozy. I love listening to it pattering on the roof or tapping on the window. (I like it a lot less when I have to go outside or drive in it though.) It's been a long time since I dealt with "New England rain" though. Down here, rain is rarely an all-day event. It may rain every single day from May through September, but it's not day after day of grey drizzle--that might be why I kind of enjoy it, most of the time.

The Girl in the Orange Background said...

I actually love the rain; I come from a place where the rain is pitiful (Lima) and I love the way it is here; that's why there is so much vegetation in this country, and that's why many places, even in cities, feel clean as opposed to contaminated. You're right, it can be melancholic, especially because of the color of the sky, but it's still good to have it. You can read this post I wrote for a few ideas on rainy days. As for thinking about a past love... that's never easy, and it can be confusing, but eventually you'll find your answers. I wish I could have a better advice for that one. I guess because I don't know much about your story, I am not sure what to say :(. Hope you have a more cheerful afternoon!

Anonymous said...

After a breakup, it's so very easy to remember all the good, to miss the happiness, and completely overlook the bad and the moments where you were crying or angry. It's just how us girls are. And the rain makes it super easy to remember those kinds of things... Maybe being busy and keeping your nose in your work will help keep your mind off everything a bit more.

Amy said...

Whenever it rains, which it rarely does here, all I want to do is grab a blanket and snuggle with my man. Unfortunatley, he's a few states away. So that's why my rainy days are depressing. I do love watching the raindrops on my window sill, hearing rain tap on my house and the 'after-rain' smell outside. I love the rain. I wish we got it here more often in southern cali.

I hope you feel better. Keep you chin up and just smile! Be happy :)

The Novelista Barista said...

it would most def. be peaceful and nice if i wasnt at crappy work :(
lol that totally ruins it... just like snow!!

M.J. said...

Rainy days are best spent curled up in bed with a book and your cat at your feet.

The Novelista Barista said...

totally agree MJ!

Kimberly said...

The rain always makes me sit and wonder about everything. It makes me miss certain moments and question things I've done in my life. I don't know why ?

The Novelista Barista said...

i dont know why either. it sucks. it needs to stop raining !

Anonymous said...

I love the rain. It somehow. Being bundled up inside. :)

The Girl of Make Believe said...

I love the rain. My friend who happens to be a boy, sat on the sofa yesterday all snuggled up and listened to it raining, was nice!
Always helps being inside.
I dislike going out in it! Frizzy hair isn't a good look.

.:*aMbAr*:. said...

I've never really liked/enjoyed the rain. BOO rain!

Anyway, I know it must be hard to not think about him at all. :( You've pretty much just broken up, and you guys dated 4ev. UGH I have nothing "good" to say, just that I know it must be hard, but hang in there :)


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