Tuesday, October 13, 2009
BH Files - Mourning the Loss
I was with this guy for 3 yrs and I thought he was the one, I mean it I was done for...
We broke up on the 23rd of March 2009 and by April 7th he had a brand new girlfriend and a brand new car.
I felt so very broken and lost. I was sad at not only losing him but all the friends and family that I came to know as my own. I still mourn that loss.
I hit rock bottom over the next couple weeks and months, truth be told its all a little fuzzy. I found that rye and coke softened the edges of something that cut me so deep that it hurt to breathe. I had a lot of anger towards him as to how he could just walk away from it all and act like the last 3 years didn’t matter.
It got to a really low point in about June and after realizing that my family and friends couldn’t help me get through all the anger and the sadness, I sought out professional help.I only saw the "shrink" once but she really helped me realize what I needed to do in order to start to no be so angry about it all. I knew that what I had been doing was not healthy emotionally, mentally and certainly not physically.
I'm not better by any sense of the word but i hope that i'm getting there.