Especially my two best friends at work. I am extremely happy for them, and then at the same time, extremely sad for me. It is getting harder and harder to be happy for them since I am still stuck here. I have been applying for jobs like crazy and I have gotten a couple phone interviews but I don't understand why they aren't going any further. Granted it is a holiday week and that is the last thing people are thinking about but come on WTF.
I know, I know. "Be happy you have a job" And really, I am. But I'm not. I want to get to the next step in my life already. I have been here almost 4 years and I am wasting my hard work on a bad place. I want to be somewhere where there is a future and potential. Thank god my boss is cool because otherwise I would have went crazy already.
I hope to god I am out of here in January. It is going to be so bad.... my boss will be away, 2 open territories, my sales associate will be off for a week. HORRIBLE. I just don't understand why I can't get one :(
UGH and to top it all off, T sent my parents a Christmas card in the mail. It is most likely because I sent his parents one, but still. UGH... Every time anything happens with him I feel like I am going to puke. It's crazy... I felt like that ALL summer.. No wonder I lost so much weight.
I should never have broken the contact... ugh.. why did I do that?! I was trying to be nice.. and I'm sure he was too but still. But I guess I didn't really.. it was just to his family...and now here I am still thinking of him, and how that was really nice...... why does this happen to me :( cant it just all go away!? it is ALWAYS SOMETHING. I just want it to stop.
ugh.... trying to be nice...